For those in dire need of relief from life. If you’re going to do it. Do it right.

Nothing is more pitiful than a failed suicide. There are many reasons for wanting to kill yourself. And just about as many ways to do it. However, why then, do so many people fail at it? Fear of failure. Fear of success. Fear of what comes after. Our product is designed to help.

When you send us your information, we create a customized package that caters to all of your needs.

First of all we erase the fear. Contained in the box is a set of legal documents accompanied with a set of simple instructions in order to set your worldy affairs in order. Confused by the word beneficiary? Not sure who’ll take care of your kids? Funeral arrangements? Don’t worry. 15 minutes will set your mind at ease.

Also contained in the box is a set of custom engraved pens and ultra fine parchment for writing a suicide note. We’ve also included a small dictionary of key phrases in order to help stimulate your mind while writing. Like, “goodbye sweet prince” or “avast ye world.”

Location, location, location. We will scout out and recommend prime locations (if you’re not doing it in your own home) for the act. Privacy garunteed and chances of been found vary, depending on your preferences.

For the deed itself we’ve included a wide range of options. Based on your pre-filled questionairre we will include options for swift and silent, long and painful, messy and cruel, and far more. We aim to please! Assassins are also available should you choose to take matters out of your own hands. Just give us a call.

Example Kit

For a 16 year old male from north new hampshire.

• Will
• Suicide Note
• 3 sample suicide notes, quoting famous writers of the 16th century
• Bubble Bath, lavender
• Candles, black, unscented
• Bloodletter Knife, serrated
• Topical Anesthesia
• Instructions on capturing streaming video and automatically uploading to youtube.
• Data Erasure Toolkit

Without Markup

I worked with Milena for this assignment. We were inspired by a scene from the Disney classic animated film Lady & The Tramp, where Lady and the tramp share a bowl of pasta and decided to use it as a metaphor for energy. See the original clip here.

I tried to calculate my waste in terms of weight or amount. I found out that pretty much everything I used this week was recycleble. That’s nice, though it seems to be more by design than accident.

• ~10 lbs or assorted paper & plastic recycleable garbage
• ~500 gallons of water used ( calculated using this )
• not sure how to measure electricity use but i have 2 game consoles constantly plugged in (if off most of the time) and my computer is on/plugged in almost 24/7

There is a man in a lost country. A king in black and white. He sits and waits. He is the last man. On his throne alone. Or perhaps he is a woman. Androgynous features and a rose in his lapel. Surrounded by the remains of those who have fallen to the darkness.
His mind roams the landscape, checking for those who remain.
Come, we shall delve into his psyche.


His mind roams the landscape, checking for those who remain.
Come, we shall delve into his psyche.
(perhaps in the end he is a kid in a coma. Suffocated by darkness as those who love him watch on)
He looks for the slightest motion. For a sound.
He hears a sob, a crying. A crack in the darkness that focuses him. There is murmuring there too. But for noW let us focus on the crying.
A figure is trying to crack out of the darkness. (the mother)
The darkness perhaps lets it.
Or perhaps it breaks free. We do not know. (the mother rushes the boy)
A crying twisted figure that perhaps was a beautiful woman. It breaks free then rests.
It rushes the king.


the (mother’s) eyes are a link to the “real world”
Under the king is another layer.


the child lying on the bed as the mother sadly watches on.
Then the doctor comes in and stares at the child. Stares at the child as he withers away. Death personified. The inevitable waiting to happen.


It hungers. (the doctor) It eats.
We focus on it masticating. On the masochistic food beneath its teeth.
(of the gum, all that remains is the kid?)
The kid who as he moves, everything goes into chaos.
chaos turns into dust turns into the frightened child on the bed


And then a beast. It hides in the shadows. It strikes here and there. Ripping the flesh from the bones.
The monster that hides under the bed. Slowly caressing the child as he cries softly. Going inside of him. Entering him.
Shifting under the surface of the skin is the real you. The self that explodes form the self. It is the fateful trap.
The tear that falls from his eye falls from the kings.


And then a darkness comes again from the king. From his sword from his face from his hand from his eye. To smother it. And engulfs them all.

discarded ideas:


It is the frightened child. In his crib, knowedgable and impotent. As he observed the world, knowledge slips away. Large clumps and blobs flying free from his head. Bludgened out by the truth of his circle.
Under the kid is an old man. Feeble and strong. Watching the world through eyes of gold.
(a tear of darkness to link to a tear of light in the “real world”)

The Input

One sheet of paper with a short poem on it.

Rules

• Each person in the team chooses a role
• Everyone can only perform tasks associated with their role
• Every teammate must participate to create the output

- Everyone must pick a role
- Each person must perform their role
before the end of the task
- If manager, you must direct and order
teammates, they can not operate unless you
say so.
- If you choose to take a break, it must be for
the entire duration of the task and can not
help your teammates.

• 3 goals are revealed after the roles are
established
• You can change roles after each goal
• You have 3 minutes to complete each goal

Roles

• Colorer: Color, black out
• Word changer: Change any word on the sheet of
paper
• Cutter: Cut, shred, destroy
• Attacher: Use paper clips, glue, stapler
• Folder: Fold paper
• Printer: Print paper with any content on it
• Manager: Direct teammates who must follow your
instructions
• Gopher/Take a break: Fetch whatever teammates
request or decide to take a break during the task

Outputs

1. Make a duck.
2. Make a poem/story about your duck.
3. Exhibit your poem/story and your duck.

Group Thoughts

We are inviting the mind as a process itself.
Specific goals have a blur once put through
the relative, interpretive mind of the human.
How many ways can you think of representing
our goals with the items that are given to
you?

A closed system verging on emergent.
It has a start and a finish, yet the flexibility to
give different results. Such as the possible
combinations of roles that can exist in each
group. The team can have different
capabilities which will result in different
interpretations of the tasks.

// Essentially the split between reality and reality.

There is the reality you imagine you are in… and then the reality that really is. You are constantly constructing a false reality for yourself. (The fact that I call it a false reality is somewhat misleading. No matter how false it is, as long as it is real to you, then it remains a reality).

What truly goes on, if realized in a way that you could understand, would destroy your reality and create a new one. Humans are, after a certain age, more and more resistant to this rather personal destruction of a world they’ve long struggled to create. And so when presenting ideas to them, the best way to do it is through abstraction and fantasy.

You must lead them to these new realities by introducting new ideas in ways that do not hammer at them, but rather present themselves in ways that allow them to occur as if the subject has thought of them as his/her own.

It must, in essence, become “unreal.”

(see freud’s ideas of ‘the umlaut’)

When we seek, when we look inside ourselves to see… “this is what I think, this is what I feel” it is… painful! It is scary. Even when we truly wish to do it, still we shy away. There is something there that is so real; so blantantly in-your-face-real that it would shatter our realities without a doubt. Deep down we know this. We use terms like “facing the darkness within” or “descending into ourselves.” Some train themselves through meditation or what have you to look at it as “revealing” or “ascending” or “enlightenment.” But no matter the terms, it is essentially the same.

You are taking what is real and changing it to something else. You go through your reality to fantasy (or un-reality) which brings forth this reality again.

It is these moments of change – of mental shift – that I wish to incite/investigate/release/demand… call it what you will. I attempt to create these moments in all that I do.